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My brother the devil .....

My Brother the Devil is a 2012 British film written and directed by Sally El Hosaini. It has won multiple awards, including at the 2012 Sundance Film Festival and at the 2012 Berlin International Film Festival.

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 My brother The Devil is a captivating film which tells the story of a gang member who struggles to hide his sexuality as well as being a good role model to his younger brother. Set in the urban backdrop of London's brixton this films covers a new side that no other urban film has.  Whilst your average Urban film consists of gang crime, drugs, and struggle M.B.T.D has a very refreshing approach . For instance a different minority has been introduced as the main family of this film are Egyptian which is very refreshing . Although the urban basics are understandably sourced through the film Sally El Hosaini has done a brilliant job of incorporating homosexuality in such a raw setting. This is a must see.

 

Controversial enlightening and about time! 

 

BE HONEST TO YOUR CHILDREN , FOR THEY HOLD THE KEY TO THE FUTURE

The world of feeling is unpredictable, confusing, and hard to control. That is the nature of feeling. . . . Some people are fortunate enough to grow up in families that teach that it is all right to experience feelings and tell the truth about them. Many families — perhaps most — teach their children strategies that become problems for us later.

-- GAY AND KATHLYN HENDRICKS,

 From as early as being 4 years old i have been emotionally suppressed. Both parents have been religious but whilst they had been drumming the fear of god into my innocent brain they weren't so innocent of ''practicing Catholics'' themselves. Yeah they went to church but dad liked to sniff coke and gamble and mum being very young and from a dysfunctional broken family herself was more interested in going out and being the interest of whatever hot guy was around  at the time.  

But apart from religion i grew up with a unrealistic look on society don't get me wrong i have some very good memories but their not necessarily that great, their just memories Ive made more attractive to my adult mind than they actually were. 

I can remember exactly the day my life went from being jaded and esthetically pleasing , it was 14/2/2000 exactly a week after my grandad died . And that was it - that's when i started to become emotionally detached  . Gone were the days of being the spoilt grand daughter with a cheeky attitude and a unrealistic view on every human around me. 

A few years later when i became a young adult was when i became the chief babysitter for my sisters, cleaner, lack of encouragement with no routine to my life whatsoever. 

So what im saying is, has emotional suppression and lack of life skills set me up for failure?

They say you make all your mistakes with your first child - is that the case was i the prototype because i was the first child?

Either way the older ive got the harder and more resentful i am about the lack of things required for the beginning of a child's life.  

I never felt like i wasn't loved or cared for before the ages of 15 but now i feel angry and damn right robbed of a chance.  

Luckily im not the sort that will turn to heroin or prostitution... THANK GOD, well not really. 

     

New Beginings... with the help of music,film & a few realistic quotes

After 4 months of being down and out i  decided that its time for me to teach myself about myself. My problem has been like i have said before that I'm not really sure who i am anymore - a lose of identity. I'm one of those people that can shell out bullet proof advice for every man and his dog without judgement but refuse to take any advise from others, usually because its half hearten bullshit that people reiterate to any one of there friends or family members in a time of need. So Ive decided to fix the problem myself, be my own teacher..... teach myself about myself.

My Tools..............

 

Until you do right by me everything you think about is gonna crumble!

“Who are you to judge the life I live?
I know I'm not perfect
-and I don't live to be-
but before you start pointing fingers...
make sure you hands are clean!”  

Stage one in progresss.........

 

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Warning: Do not molest me!

Set in the near future, Frank, a retired cat burglar, has two grown kids who are concerned he can no longer live alone. They are tempted to place him in a nursing home until Frank's son chooses a different option: against the old man's wishes, he buys Frank a walking, talking humanoid robot programmed to improve his physical and mental health. What follows is an often hilarious and somewhat heartbreaking story about finding friends and family in the most unexpected places.

I watched this film a few days ago. Worth a watch but not life changing! Solid story with inevitable ending... a few ''funnies' but was more of a drama than anything else.  Glad i didn't pay to watch it that's for sure.

We're all fucked!

Did this blow your mind like it blew mine? I bet it did!

0:10 Boxed In
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0:45BO/B
The left-right puppet and additional layer of disenfranchisement, keeping you distracted while Drako weaves his web.
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1:13 Lily
And suddenly a startling realization arose in Lily: "This apple is not mine", she thought.
"It belongs to someone else."
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2:4 Sadness
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2:17 More Skullduggery
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2:30 Lady Helotry
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2:34 Prey
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2:56 Drako
The Sorcerer, the unseen hand and spirit of madness seeking ever more control through trickery, lies, poisons, false-flag events, wars, and mountains of beauracratic and legal framework to siphon off the energy of the inhabitants of the earth. He fears the light of day as he fears life itself, and operates in the shadows. His greatest power is his hold on the issuance of the currency.
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3:13 Pietà
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3:20 Aali
The whirling heart of Islam awakened to the one true God! He is free and needs no control.
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3:32 Juan "Pepito"
After years of economic exploitation and the environmental degradation, Juan "Pepito" has a decidedly sinking feeling.
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3:42 Sun-Sue
Opposing courageously those who would enslave her.
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3:43 Skullduggery
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4:6 Fire Of Truth
That's YOU!!! when you stand in the awareness of your sonship with the Divine and the
brotherhood of mankind!!!
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4:45 Madame Q
Madame Q's point of suffering is sex. Is it repression or indulgence?
We don't know. Yet their is definitely shame there
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5:15 Ludovic
In Latin, ludo means to play and ovis (ovum/ovis) can mean egg. The egg is a symbol of the potential, genetics, and of the soul.
Ovis can also mean sheep in Latin.
But in reality, Ludovic comes from a Germanic name meaning illustrious in combat.
5:31 L'enfant Bleu
The keeper of the flame.
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6:08 the sleeper must awake (see Dune)

Its Friday...

Which only means one thing....