Chameleon

For as long as i remember I've been the chameleon - the one who bounced from groups of acquaintances with no concrete friendship. I've had the world wind friendship where I've been friends with 1 person lived life to the full then some how or another it would fizzle out to barely a glance in the street.
I have very  much been the happy dog to society,wagging my tail and eyes full of excitement and loyalty but its seems to have got me nowhere in the friendship department.
Now 21 with a young child living on my own terms I'm not much further along in life if anything i would say  i have less people i would consider friends but merely people i know.
The problem i have is a lot of people force friendship especially if your from a small town,rather than finding people who are like minded and have the same interest.More time people will result to people they've known over the years with forced basis.
Maybe that's where  I'm going wrong?
I don't see the point in trying to fit in anymore
But have i decided this too late in the cycle?

New Beginings... with the help of music,film & a few realistic quotes

After 4 months of being down and out i  decided that its time for me to teach myself about myself. My problem has been like i have said before that I'm not really sure who i am anymore - a lose of identity. I'm one of those people that can shell out bullet proof advice for every man and his dog without judgement but refuse to take any advise from others, usually because its half hearten bullshit that people reiterate to any one of there friends or family members in a time of need. So Ive decided to fix the problem myself, be my own teacher..... teach myself about myself.

My Tools..............

 

Until you do right by me everything you think about is gonna crumble!

“Who are you to judge the life I live?
I know I'm not perfect
-and I don't live to be-
but before you start pointing fingers...
make sure you hands are clean!”  

Stage one in progresss.........

 

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